Before and After

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I'm almost disappointed. I was expecting a big purple splotch. All these years I assumed I had a wine stain that caused my red streak. Nope. It's lighter. There are bleached spots where my gold streaks grow from. I do have on purple spot but it's on the other side. It's perfectly round and about the diameter of a AAA battery.

Embrace the Baldness

Yep, that's me in the jammies. Haven't got my hair cut yet. Still working on positive imagery so I don't find myself weeping in the salon chair.

Suppose I had the opportunity of a life time and all I had to do was cut my hair off... maybe it's a trip into space... maybe it's a stay at a monastery where all I had to do was paint... maybe it's a chance to hang out with Richard Gere and he has a thing for bald women (doubt that it's so, but if it were)... would I shave my head? Ya!

Well, this is an opportunity of a life time. An opportunity to prevent a recurrence of the cancer. I don't HAVE to shave my head. But the hair is going one way or another, so I would rather it go on my own terms.

Need to go pick out a scarf and pick up some self tanner. And remember to bring my camera. Should I invite Paul? He might make me cry.

Passage From an Email:
>> I So wish I could be there for you tomorrow....
Re: Yep, that's just what I need. You standing behind me laughing so hard that no sound comes out, point at my head and flailing. After a while you'd catch your breath and be able to gasp out, "Do you have any idea how stupid your head looks?!" followed by more laughter leading to "I HAVE TO PEE!!!!!"

Thats what best friends are for!

Gag - I'm So Weepy

I'm not even sad. It's so weird. Not so much right now because it's after dinner and I've got MAD MAX playing in the back ground. But in general, so many things cause that tightening in my throat, a flush to my cheeks and my eyes to well up. It could be a happy moment, a sad moment, a romantic story or a baby story, a rescued animal or human... about the only thing that doesn't choke me up is in-your-face comedy and cooking shows.

I think it might be a result of the fact that I'm holding everything in about having to have the cancer treatment. I'm not scared. I don't even feel sick... Yet. I hope I don't get too sick.

Series finally of Dollhouse - bet there will be at least one seen that makes me cry.

Loss of My Locks

I have to get my hair cut this weekend. I wasn't expecting it to be so fast!
I got weepy at the hospital. I'm usually really good about holding myself together but the hair thing... The nurse was describing how it all off a sudden start to come out in clumps in your hands... I'm such a visual person. It's like it already happened to me.

I'm a little worried about having a hair dresser shave my head. I don't really want to bum out some stranger 'cause I'm getting chemo. think I'll have it cut Saturday.

I'm donating it to charity. I probably have a good 15" - 18". Long, strong, gorgeous, healthy brown and gold hair. Someone is going to get a beautiful wig. I don't want to see my hair poisoned and withering away. Chemo can't have it. The hair is coming off on my terms.

Hey... I finally get to see my own birthmark.

Met with Chemo Doc

I like the way he described my case. I had cancer, I had a lumpectomy, I no longer have cancer. The chemo and radiation treatments are preventative maintenance to ensure I don't have a repeat episode.

The bone scan and liver ultrasound both came back negative for cancer. I didn't know that's what they were looking for. I could have sword Dr Niaz had said the scans were to check wether I was healthy enough to handle the chemo drugs. I've found a lot of information is provided on a "need-to-know" basis only.

Good news! The chemo isn't going to be 1 week straight - 3 weeks off... It'll only be 1 day every 3 weeks. I'll be done that phase of treatment in 18 weeks - just over 4 months instead of 7-8.
My first treatment is next Friday.

Art Project Intentions

I'm planning on doing some artwork partly for therapy and partly as a fundraiser. I'll be doing miscellaneous breast-inspired illustrations and paintings that I'll post as images and apply to products like cards and such. Feel free to use my images on your web pages but don't edit them. A donation would be greatly appreciated. Contact me via email If you would like to purchase and original or commission some work...

Nothing is currently available. I need to hook up my PayPal account first.

Walking

I went for a walk on Saturday afternoon. Down to Sugar Maple Park, through the wood, around the gas station and straight home around the grocery store. (20 min 2.68 km) Walked hard and fast enough to make me breath hard. My butt's a little soar.

I went for a walk on Sunday evening. It was nice - foggy and dark out. I decided to keep to well lit, busy streets. Up Glen Erin to Britania, 1 block right twice dumped me onto Bell Harbour and back down Glen Erin. (25 min 2.91 km) Walked hard and fast enough to make me breath hard. My butt's still a little soar.

Monday - I suck... no walk.
Tuesday...think I'll go for a walk in a bit. It's already 5 and I have work to do and emails to check first.